I don't think so. I don't remember having one, and the uniform I have now doesn't have one.

All I had was the knife.

[ And come to think of it, he remembers being in a lot of pain then, too--a sharp, throbbing pain deep in his leg, and the knife was bloody in his hands even before he killed someone with it. ]

I think...I think I got stabbed with that knife and then I took it and threw it.

[ what the hell kind of crap was he even doing, these memories get more disturbing by the second ]