I never said that - and I don't think that anyone has let it lie, either.
The point of a mistake is not to relive it, over and over, but to learn from it, and move forward from it. Venting your fury will do nothing but cause more pain for the both of you.
Miss Jeanne is alive, with treatable and healing wounds. Kano is not. Someone out there still has a jewel with a similar power to his. That is the state of things now, and that is what matters.
[ fuck you for being right!!! fuck you!!! fuck you!!!!!!
Vezda hates this. He hates that he fucked up so bad last week, and he hates that he's wallowing about it like a dumb ineffective baby in front of everybody, making a fool out of himself. Isn't this what he does, push past his mistakes and make up for them by doing better next time?
(This is always what gets him--sure, he believes in actions speaking louder than words, in fixing his mistakes rather than apologizing--but no action can bring the dead back to life. That fuckup will always weigh on him, no matter how he tries to atone for it.)
He wants to punch something, but that would just make this even more of a tantrum, wouldn't it? So he clenches his fists at his sides and pretends it's enough. ]
Trust me, I know, and I'm not letting them get away, and I'm not letting a mistake like this happen again.
But I can't just let this go.
[ 'This' not being Mob's usage of the rock. It was never really about that anyway. ]
recognition flickers across xie lian's face, and his emotions at this distance, too. there's familiarity, and a little sadness to it, but he stays calm, brows knitting together with concern, though it's for their entire situation. not just this. ]
...I know, that you know. We all do. [ just like what xie lian says means a lot more than what's happening with poor mob right now. he speaks gently, but firmly, too, though his emotions bear nothing but genuine sentiment behind what he says. he feels for bucky, right now. ] And being trapped here, knowing that means what occurred will happen last week will most likely happen again is no boon to that, either.
It is not a bad thing, to remember, and to learn, but to linger will bring resentment and cruelty towards those who don't really warrant it.
[ he pauses, for a moment, glancing over his shoulder, and then returns his full attention back to bucky. ] ...Will you come and take a walk with me for a little while? This ship is quite large, and I'd like to get a lay of it, just in case something ends up happening here.
[ he hopes not, but. each murder so far has been in many places, so he can't even rule out the howling rose.
...and besides, it would be nice to have something to do that feels productive. at least, that's how xie lian feels right now, knowing what must be coming. ]
[ "This ship is quite large, and I'd like to get a lay of it, just in case something ends up happening here." THIS DID NOT AGE WELL
anyway!! xie lian's going to take him off to investigate. the least they can do is take stock of some of the things on the ship, right? check out the weird treasure chests and the crates and stuff.
xie lian is good company. he's fine to let bucky just be grumpy and posturing, honestly used to this behavior from someone he used to spend a lot of time with. instead, his emotions this close just radiate calm, soothing energy. this, basically, as they head below deck and away from the situation.
[ no... his soothing aura is just kind of attached to him. that's what happens when you're xie lian, with the mii music playing in your head 10 hours a day. ]
...Getting stuck on these dreadful "curfews" always makes me feel antsy, because there's no way to seemingly stop myself from falling asleep, and therefore, do anything to help, so... I wanted to try and do something, at least before I slept, just in case.
...No, it's getting a layout of the ship and the things on it, just in case, and I thought you might want the break away from the others, too. I don't really feel like I'm babysitting you - you're an adult, you can do what you like...
[ ...granted, he can think of at least two immortal adults off the top of his head that absolutely, positively, 100% need babysitting, but that isn't the point here. ]
...It's frustrating. [ here. not just on the boat. in this place. it just makes them all feel frustrated, and angry. ] All of this is.
[ Part of him wants to stomp off anyway, just to prove his point that Xie Lian's got no control over him and he can do what he want.
But he also recognizes that he did, in fact, need to step away from the others, even if he didn't realize it at the time. So. Fine. Here he stays. Damn it.
He scoffs at the understatement. ]
Yeah, no shit. This is all just a glorified prison, but with more murder.
...no, actually, it's about the same. So just a glorified prison.
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The point of a mistake is not to relive it, over and over, but to learn from it, and move forward from it. Venting your fury will do nothing but cause more pain for the both of you.
Miss Jeanne is alive, with treatable and healing wounds. Kano is not. Someone out there still has a jewel with a similar power to his. That is the state of things now, and that is what matters.
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Vezda hates this. He hates that he fucked up so bad last week, and he hates that he's wallowing about it like a dumb ineffective baby in front of everybody, making a fool out of himself. Isn't this what he does, push past his mistakes and make up for them by doing better next time?
(This is always what gets him--sure, he believes in actions speaking louder than words, in fixing his mistakes rather than apologizing--but no action can bring the dead back to life. That fuckup will always weigh on him, no matter how he tries to atone for it.)
He wants to punch something, but that would just make this even more of a tantrum, wouldn't it? So he clenches his fists at his sides and pretends it's enough. ]
Trust me, I know, and I'm not letting them get away, and I'm not letting a mistake like this happen again.
But I can't just let this go.
[ 'This' not being Mob's usage of the rock. It was never really about that anyway. ]
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recognition flickers across xie lian's face, and his emotions at this distance, too. there's familiarity, and a little sadness to it, but he stays calm, brows knitting together with concern, though it's for their entire situation. not just this. ]
...I know, that you know. We all do. [ just like what xie lian says means a lot more than what's happening with poor mob right now. he speaks gently, but firmly, too, though his emotions bear nothing but genuine sentiment behind what he says. he feels for bucky, right now. ] And being trapped here, knowing that means what occurred will happen last week will most likely happen again is no boon to that, either.
It is not a bad thing, to remember, and to learn, but to linger will bring resentment and cruelty towards those who don't really warrant it.
[ he pauses, for a moment, glancing over his shoulder, and then returns his full attention back to bucky. ] ...Will you come and take a walk with me for a little while? This ship is quite large, and I'd like to get a lay of it, just in case something ends up happening here.
[ he hopes not, but. each murder so far has been in many places, so he can't even rule out the howling rose.
...and besides, it would be nice to have something to do that feels productive. at least, that's how xie lian feels right now, knowing what must be coming. ]
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Not that he sounds grateful for it, the way he's posturing and growling angrily about it. ]
Fine. Whatever. Let's go.
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anyway!! xie lian's going to take him off to investigate. the least they can do is take stock of some of the things on the ship, right? check out the weird treasure chests and the crates and stuff.
xie lian is good company. he's fine to let bucky just be grumpy and posturing, honestly used to this behavior from someone he used to spend a lot of time with. instead, his emotions this close just radiate calm, soothing energy. this, basically, as they head below deck and away from the situation.
talk whenever you're ready to vent, buddy. ]
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You don't have to try soothing me like I'm some baby throwing a tantrum!
[ Even though he, uh, totally is. ]
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...Is that what I'm doing?
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[ no... his soothing aura is just kind of attached to him. that's what happens when you're xie lian, with the mii music playing in your head 10 hours a day. ]
...Getting stuck on these dreadful "curfews" always makes me feel antsy, because there's no way to seemingly stop myself from falling asleep, and therefore, do anything to help, so... I wanted to try and do something, at least before I slept, just in case.
I thought perhaps you might be the same...?
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[ ...granted, he can think of at least two immortal adults off the top of his head that absolutely, positively, 100% need babysitting, but that isn't the point here. ]
...It's frustrating. [ here. not just on the boat. in this place. it just makes them all feel frustrated, and angry. ] All of this is.
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But he also recognizes that he did, in fact, need to step away from the others, even if he didn't realize it at the time. So. Fine. Here he stays. Damn it.
He scoffs at the understatement. ]
Yeah, no shit. This is all just a glorified prison, but with more murder.
...no, actually, it's about the same. So just a glorified prison.
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... anyway. ]
...It is, isn't it? Albeit, one with running water, and friendly faces. Our freedoms here are quite limited, in many senses of the word.
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And the faces clearly aren't all that friendly, what with all the murdering going around.