It was...nice. That you wanted to stick up for me. But, Sebastian, you know...I've been through a lot worse. Hell, this wasn't even the first time I was incorrectly voted in one of these things. I'm not interested in holding a grudge against anyone who wasn't in their right mind when they killed. All that really mattered was making sure my hostage was safe. Anything past that? I can forgive. Or at least forget.
I... I guess maybe it was a little selfish too, though. I still kept feeling like what happened to you was my fault for failing as a prosecutor, and it was driving me crazy that I couldn't figure out the truth. So finding out that Rin and all these other people had known what really happened for weeks when I'd been beating myself up over it that whole time really... stung a lot.
[ he sighs. ]
And a bunch of stuff happened and then I was mad at both them and myself, and I just... wanted to find a reason to feel less... bad. And I didn't.
[ well doesn't that hit like a punch to the gut. ]
...well...I think you managed that alright. Not the best way, maybe, but...you could've done a hell of a lot worse looking for ways to feel better. Certainly not as bad as I have, in the past.
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A little, yeah.
It was...nice. That you wanted to stick up for me. But, Sebastian, you know...I've been through a lot worse. Hell, this wasn't even the first time I was incorrectly voted in one of these things. I'm not interested in holding a grudge against anyone who wasn't in their right mind when they killed. All that really mattered was making sure my hostage was safe. Anything past that? I can forgive. Or at least forget.
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I... I guess maybe it was a little selfish too, though. I still kept feeling like what happened to you was my fault for failing as a prosecutor, and it was driving me crazy that I couldn't figure out the truth. So finding out that Rin and all these other people had known what really happened for weeks when I'd been beating myself up over it that whole time really... stung a lot.
[ he sighs. ]
And a bunch of stuff happened and then I was mad at both them and myself, and I just... wanted to find a reason to feel less... bad. And I didn't.
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...well...I think you managed that alright. Not the best way, maybe, but...you could've done a hell of a lot worse looking for ways to feel better. Certainly not as bad as I have, in the past.