[ God he fucking hates that look right now. He has no idea what Mob's thinking, but it feels like he's learned nothing in this past week and it makes him want to get angry.
Instead, he just raises an eyebrow. ]
Yeah. That's why they started putting up signs. That's why I'm not alone somewhere where I wouldn't have an alibi.
[ ALTHOUGH BOY HE WISHES IT'D BE SOMEONE ELSE HERE ]
[Well, have an emotion share, in that case. Mob's emotions are - a little weird? Extremely subdued, almost muffled? But mainly right now he just feels kind of anxious.]
[ Well. Vezda doesn't know what to do with that. The muffled feelings are weird, but he can at least get the anxiety. Maybe Mob's not as naive as he seems.
(But then that just makes him even more frustrated, and Mob can feel it--because if he knows there's a risk of another person getting killed, shouldn't he know what he did last week was wrong?)
He huffs. ]
Well, considering the murders have happened sometime during Thursday nights every week, I think we have a pretty good idea of what that 'something' is.
Oh, great! Good to know that we used this one-time-only super powerful magic rock on a kid who used it to try and kill someone!
[ He drags his hands down his face and takes a deep breath. ]
Alright, fine. You want me to say so? Here: sometimes, life is just unfair and people suffer when they don't deserve it! And Jeanne nearly died because you just couldn't accept it and let things lie!
[Everyone else, just chill while Bucky yells at an awkward teen. Okay, he definitely makes an anxiety face at that. He isn't capable of just standing there and being yelled at without getting anxious. But he's trying to?]
That. . . that's not true. [He seems insecure in saying that but he's not, he's just fighting against his desire to flinch.] She didn't nearly die. And she was glad that I used it. She didn't want to hurt anyone.
[ this is hurting me, but Vezda does not give a shit. ]
He wouldn't have even been able to do so much damage if he could've felt himself getting hurt! It shouldn't have been an issue! And he didn't deserve that rock treatment besides.
[ If emotionshare is still happening, Mob might detect a hint of...self-loathing? ]
[This. Doesn't surprise him at all. Someone already explained to him that Vezda lashes out with his feelings when he feels bad. So, knowing that, he can't be angry with him for it.]
He did deserve it. Even if the timing was wrong, he didn't deserve to get hurt.
Shigeo... [ :c!!!! ] There's no point in beating a dead horse - what's done is done, and letting him vent frustration on you on a night when all of us are certainly worried or scared will do nothing to change it.
[ but, he'll back off if you really want him to, giving a little nod. ]
[He understands, and yes, nothing will change, and yes, tonight is murder night, but. . . ]
I already know how I feel about what happened with Kano-san. So. . . it's okay.
But. . . if I do something that someone thinks is bad, they need to be able to tell me that. [He's grateful, that so many people want to protect him, but. But.] What if someday I make a decision that is really wrong?
...If you do, then... just know that the world does not repetitively need to drop lessons on you in the form of a landslide, when it could be learned just as easily with one rock.
[ but. ] ...I'll respect your wishes, if you're sure, though. [ xie lian says, and - normally he'd give mob a pat on the head, but he doesn't want to shock him, so.
ruoye wriggles out of his sleeve, and the bandage gives him a little pat, pat on the head instead. ]
[ xie lian is calm as ever, reflecting easily in his words. ] Do you really think you're the first person to tell him that his actions had consequences - or do you believe that he's too young to understand them on his own?
I never said that - and I don't think that anyone has let it lie, either.
The point of a mistake is not to relive it, over and over, but to learn from it, and move forward from it. Venting your fury will do nothing but cause more pain for the both of you.
Miss Jeanne is alive, with treatable and healing wounds. Kano is not. Someone out there still has a jewel with a similar power to his. That is the state of things now, and that is what matters.
[ fuck you for being right!!! fuck you!!! fuck you!!!!!!
Vezda hates this. He hates that he fucked up so bad last week, and he hates that he's wallowing about it like a dumb ineffective baby in front of everybody, making a fool out of himself. Isn't this what he does, push past his mistakes and make up for them by doing better next time?
(This is always what gets him--sure, he believes in actions speaking louder than words, in fixing his mistakes rather than apologizing--but no action can bring the dead back to life. That fuckup will always weigh on him, no matter how he tries to atone for it.)
He wants to punch something, but that would just make this even more of a tantrum, wouldn't it? So he clenches his fists at his sides and pretends it's enough. ]
Trust me, I know, and I'm not letting them get away, and I'm not letting a mistake like this happen again.
But I can't just let this go.
[ 'This' not being Mob's usage of the rock. It was never really about that anyway. ]
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frostythehitman) wrote2020-10-15 08:39 pm
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It happens every week.
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Instead, he just raises an eyebrow. ]
Yeah. That's why they started putting up signs. That's why I'm not alone somewhere where I wouldn't have an alibi.
[ ALTHOUGH BOY HE WISHES IT'D BE SOMEONE ELSE HERE ]
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Mm. Something might be happening outside. . .
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(But then that just makes him even more frustrated, and Mob can feel it--because if he knows there's a risk of another person getting killed, shouldn't he know what he did last week was wrong?)
He huffs. ]
Well, considering the murders have happened sometime during Thursday nights every week, I think we have a pretty good idea of what that 'something' is.
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[He knows. Just because he puts it gently doesn't mean he's stupid.]
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Yeah.
You planning to use that stupid pain-erasing rock again, make it easier for the killer?
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[Wow. More of his dead-eyed, ambiguous expression at him.]
Vezda-san. If you're angry with someone, you should say so. You can't expect people to automatically understand your feelings, otherwise.
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[ He drags his hands down his face and takes a deep breath. ]
Alright, fine. You want me to say so? Here: sometimes, life is just unfair and people suffer when they don't deserve it! And Jeanne nearly died because you just couldn't accept it and let things lie!
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That. . . that's not true. [He seems insecure in saying that but he's not, he's just fighting against his desire to flinch.] She didn't nearly die. And she was glad that I used it. She didn't want to hurt anyone.
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He wouldn't have even been able to do so much damage if he could've felt himself getting hurt! It shouldn't have been an issue! And he didn't deserve that rock treatment besides.
[ If emotionshare is still happening, Mob might detect a hint of...self-loathing? ]
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He did deserve it. Even if the timing was wrong, he didn't deserve to get hurt.
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...Is this not the first time you've had this conversation with him, Vezda? That's enough.
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It's okay. I asked him to tell me how he feels.
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Shigeo... [ :c!!!! ] There's no point in beating a dead horse - what's done is done, and letting him vent frustration on you on a night when all of us are certainly worried or scared will do nothing to change it.
[ but, he'll back off if you really want him to, giving a little nod. ]
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I already know how I feel about what happened with Kano-san. So. . . it's okay.
But. . . if I do something that someone thinks is bad, they need to be able to tell me that. [He's grateful, that so many people want to protect him, but. But.] What if someday I make a decision that is really wrong?
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[ but. ] ...I'll respect your wishes, if you're sure, though. [ xie lian says, and - normally he'd give mob a pat on the head, but he doesn't want to shock him, so.
ruoye wriggles out of his sleeve, and the bandage gives him a little pat, pat on the head instead. ]
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At this point, it is only salt in the wound.
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The point of a mistake is not to relive it, over and over, but to learn from it, and move forward from it. Venting your fury will do nothing but cause more pain for the both of you.
Miss Jeanne is alive, with treatable and healing wounds. Kano is not. Someone out there still has a jewel with a similar power to his. That is the state of things now, and that is what matters.
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Vezda hates this. He hates that he fucked up so bad last week, and he hates that he's wallowing about it like a dumb ineffective baby in front of everybody, making a fool out of himself. Isn't this what he does, push past his mistakes and make up for them by doing better next time?
(This is always what gets him--sure, he believes in actions speaking louder than words, in fixing his mistakes rather than apologizing--but no action can bring the dead back to life. That fuckup will always weigh on him, no matter how he tries to atone for it.)
He wants to punch something, but that would just make this even more of a tantrum, wouldn't it? So he clenches his fists at his sides and pretends it's enough. ]
Trust me, I know, and I'm not letting them get away, and I'm not letting a mistake like this happen again.
But I can't just let this go.
[ 'This' not being Mob's usage of the rock. It was never really about that anyway. ]
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